Monday, August 01, 2005

Where do we go from here?

I watched Willy Wonka last night and I've come to realize that there are many great lines in the movie. Mrs. T.V. said "Mr. Wonka I want to go back." Willie Wonka replied "Oh my dear, one must move forward in order to go back."

I think this is where we stand right now in regards to living in Egypt. I know we need to move forward in order to go back (to the US). Hassan is happy here, it's a good thing. I'm glad that Mira is having fun; the main reason for having fun here is that she swims just about everyday. And then there's me -- still grappling with the fact that we've been here almost four months (I can't believe it).

After doing some internet research, I've decided to go ahead and post my resume so I can find full-time work in the US with benefits. It is vital to have health insurance benefits for the family. Then I was thinking -- do I post my resume for the Maryland/DC/Virginia area? Do I post it for another part of the country? I told Hassan the other day this may be the "kick in the pants" i.e. the catalyst I needed to throw me back into the working world.

As for Mira, she would do fine in any school - but of course we would want it to be a good public school system.

A few of the American women I've met while here in Egypt are on anti-depressants to help them cope with living and trying to adjust to life in Egypt. I really don't want to go on anti-depressants because it won't solve anything for me, except for taking the edge off of life for awhile. One woman is from New Jersey and I just found she's returning to New Jersey with her 5 year old son while her husband continues to live here for a year. She will be staying with her sister.

Maybe that's the answer for us -- but for how long?



1 comment:

UmmLayla said...

Well, I think that women everywhere can struggle with depression. I have thought about it quite a bit, and I feel like taking meds would lead me down a road to dependency on them. Not that it does that for everyone, but I think I have that personality. Or, maybe I am just paranoid, because I feel the same way about my pain meds for migraines... LOL!

Insha'Allah, you will get through this stage. I for one actually have moving to Egypt as a goal. So, I think the stress comes from the way you view things. I am stressed here in Laramie because I am waiting to get out of here. Like the Terry McMillan book, we are all "waiting to exhale". BTW, great book to read in your situation if you haven't read it already;)